Thursday, September 23, 2010

It's all alright

Sorry it's been awhile since I've put anything up here, I don't have any excuses other than a lack of interesting things to report. I still feel about the same: really tired, a bit out of it mentally. I finished the meds and am now waiting for confirmation from the doc that my little friends really are dead. When I went back in to give them a post-med sample I talked with my doc for a few moments and he was surprised to find I wasn't feeling better, but assured me that I did actually have what they treated so this exhaustion is either something else or a slow healing process.  We'll see. It's in God's hands.

In the meantime I have discovered Radiolab on NPR which is awesome, though I'm also a long-time fan of Wait, Wait Don't Tell Me, another NPR classic. I have been going to a lot of potlucks and ceremonies for my little brothers in Karate and Boy Scouts...my how quickly they grow up! Apparently the Karate teacher had to call a special conference with Mom because of some issues that had arisen during class, namely b.o. These young men need to wear more deodorant. ;) Noisetrade continues to supply me with awesome new music, and I love couches right now. I also really enjoy the great American luxury of putting the toilet paper in the toilet. The pipes down south were too small to accommodate such frivolity, so the trash can next to it was always a bit smelly. It's a small thing, but it still makes me feel cool, like I'm breaking a rule ;)

I am also finishing sewing a skirt I began a year ago...to be fair though, I am sewing it all by hand (never got the hang of those machines) and I made up the pattern myself (aka am making it up as I go), and am using an old dress (ugly), leftover quilt batting and two torn silk skirts to make it. So for it looks...interesting. I'll post pictures when it's done, but right now I'm just enjoying the process and the challenge of working with such diverse fabrics.

One of these days, when I have a brain again, I will post something of more substance up here. I have been reflecting on things a lot and on a lot of things in my convalescence but haven't had the energy to explain them just yet...

Thursday, September 9, 2010

23

Yesterday was my birthday. It is my father's birthday also (which I think is pretty fun) but I was too tired and dizzy to do anything but lie down. Consequentially the height of our celebrations was that my dad went out and bought frosties from Wendy's for everyone. They were delicious :) I must say that with my family all around me, even sitting by my feet to keep them warm, it was a wonderful day.

I got the results of my labs today and they all came back fine apparently. Which makes me wonder, why don't I feel better? Is it just the parasites? Is it something else we didn't check for? When I first got back I was feelin' pretty good but I think I over-exerted myself because I feel worse again now. Or could it be the meds themselves? I don't know...I've got another week of meds for the parasites and then I guess if nothing's improved I talk to the doc again. Not that you all care that much, but that's what's up in the health department.

In other news...well, there really isn't any. I'm reading Persuasion again (I don't think it will ever get old) and spending a lot of time on the couch. Things spin when I'm vertical so down is a good direction for me.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

is a title really necessary for a silly little update?

Well, I got the meds yesterday afternoon after much pharmacy finagling, and because I am apparently only just being dropped from my parent's health insurance, it ended up being only $30.00: much better than the 500+ I was anticipating. I might have to pay more later if the insurance doesn't go through, and I'm still waiting on a bill from the doctor, but right now I am pretty contented with the course of things. 

I got to visit my sister today in her new digs in Tacoma, she has a lovely roommate and such a sweet little apartment! They live in the upper story of an old house, with lovely wood floors and that delightful old house smell. I kept thinking of Pati's Place in Anne of the Island and I hope they have many happy night studying and gathering with friends there! It was so good to see my sister and spend some time together eating good food :)

Harbor days is this weekend down at the port, so Dad and I went down to look at some boats this evening as the sun was setting. It was soo good to smell the salt! Oh, how I miss that smell every time I go away!

I am still figuring out how I feel about all of this. I needed to come back, that much I know, but I wonder what God's plan is for me...it can grow wearying bouncing around from place to place, but I suppose it is my lot until He calls me to give my life to something. I'm glad it keeps moving, and I'm glad that I am going with God, wherever it is I'm going. I know that He has my hand firmly grasped and as we run through the obscurity of my future, He is leading the way. Oh Love, help me to think less of my way, and more of the people I meet along it! And oh Goodness, help me to be patient!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Hello dears,
I am back in the states. I flew back on Monday after a brief conference with Sister Gloria, the director of the program, and Sor. Pati on Sunday afternoon. We all agreed that since I was not healing there, the time had come to return to my home and seek medical attention here. To that tune I saw my doctor today and he said "You have something, I don't know what it is yet, but you have something." I said "Good, I'm glad to hear this isn't the new normal." I had some tests done and he was going to talk to a colleague who apparently does most of the parasite work in town so hopefully we will know soon what seems to be causing my symptoms.

Throughout all of this though, I have only felt the greatest peace and joy in our Lord. I love the people and where I was working in El Salvador, but I know that right now he wants me to be right here to do some healing. After this...who knows?

News break: I just got off the phone with the doctor's office and the colleague agrees that I have an acute amoeba blah blah infection which needs to be treated or it could turn into a liver infection. The meds will take two weeks, after which I will have to produce a clean sample. So I guess I know I'll be here for two weeks!

Oh Lord, to you I entrust my entire being, all that I am, knowing with total confidence that you are my Lord and you will care for me and lead me forward in the best way and according to your holy will. I surrender the desire to know anything else to you.

God bless you friends, wherever you are, God bless you.